Will Falconer, DVM Moderator
Hey Kristi,
A page that should help for the next pup who comes: Prevent Parvo and Distemper Without Vaccinations.
And a remedy for the grief and adjustment you're processing: Bach Flower Walnut. Take with Rescue Remedy for a week or more, until you feel better and realize this wasn't your fault.
All my best to you and your pack.