Will Falconer, DVM Moderator
The antidote for fears of any kind is always the same thing: knowledge. Use the search box in the right hand side and dig in. Any word you're interested in or any phrase will turn up everything I've written or recorded about that subject. I'd start with "fear" itself, an emotional state that's never a good place to make health decisions from.
When you OWN your decision that you are going to do things differently than the damaging ways of conventional prevention, you'll be confident enough to ask for what you want.
I wish you all the best going forward. Fear is entirely optional.